Day 12

So i'm about a 1/3 done with the first phase... i can already see alot of change. I think ive lost around ten pounds. Last time i weighed was Tues night and i had lost eight. Its going pretty well...tonight my grandmother had a bunch of relatives i hardly see over and she made seafood pasta, bread,cake and pie. it all looked really good but me, Lauren and Jonathan brought our own food and it was slightly awkward bc my cousins Adrian and Matthew were asking alot of questions about the diet and i wished that i could have been more low key about it bc its not a big deal but i think they were just intrigued. In case you were wondering ( probably weren't)... i had grilled tilapia and salad with ranch( yes...we are allowed ranch). It was actually super good and im still full.

I think the hardest thing about this diet is being away from sweets. I mean i always tried to keep my love for sweets on lockdown, but now that i am on this diet, i want them more. It's not that i "crave" them....i "want" them. See, theres a difference....and God is definitely teaching me self control ;P

Lauren works in a coffee shop at Wesley and the guy who informed her about this diet ( he lost 65 pounds and has kept it off a year), comes by and always gets sugary coffee drinks( those can get up to 800 cals) and icing covered goodies. The other day he said to her " When you're off the diet, YOU can eat like this :)"..... thats good. i mean im not gonna dive into a pool of chocolate---although that does sound incredible right now... But i think there are a few things i'll treat myself to on occasion....such as...


1.Canes ( ooh baby)
2.La Fiesta (queso, anyone?)
3.Pizza ( nuff said)
4.Qudoba/Caliente( never been to either)
5.cookies/chocolate :)
6.Hibachi/Sushi
7.I know this is really random....but a BIg mac...ive never had one.


I know what you're thinking..."lindsay! what happened to banishing those things forever?"....i'll tell you what happened friend....i said screw that! its ok to indulge on occasion...its not necessarily "what" you eat but HOW you eat it. I got this.... oh did i mention CHEETOS.

*Fatty at heart...i know....don't judge. you love food too.




Have a great weekend!

~Linds

Just so you're up to date...

I decided i have to re-evaluate this diet plan. Because i misread what the site said which is that there are TWO phases....but there are TWO different protocols to each phase. The first phase is the active weight loss phase and the second phase is the intermediate....slowly get off the diet as a whole, phase. Protocol one lasts 6 wks, protocol two lasts a week and both of the protocols in phase 2 last a week each. That equals NINE weeks. I thought it would be eight.

I know what you're thinking...."Lindsay. its just ONE extra week".... well THAT means my birthday would be a big suck fest of nothing but like... yogurt. SO i figured it out and now i only have 5 more weeks and the protocols will all last a week except the last one which will last 5 days so my birthday will be a glorious day where i can chill with family and friends and not feel bad if i have some carbs and sugar. Of course i wouldn't like, go ape on anything but... i think its fair to indulge in my mother's basically healthy home cooking :) Given that i have sacrificed my very soul for this diet (a.k.a chocolate)


Here is what i ate today:



B- strawberry flavored whey protein w water, tea

L- cookies & cream flavored whey protein w water

S-cookies & cream flavored whey protein w water

D- taco salad ( minus the taco)... it had alot of lettuce, shredded chicken, 1 teaspoon of sour cream and hot sauce!

Then i worked out for 30 minutes... yeah not that impressive....but i was slightly tired from lack of nutrients and walking all over campus carrying a 20 pound bag on my right shoulder. ow.


Goodnight lovelies <3

Day 7 of the diet

SO i have been at this diet for one full week and have lost....*drumroll*.......EIGHT pounds. yay. I hardly even had to work out. Of course i don't expect to lose that much EVERY week, but i do expect to lose around 3-4 pounds each week. I'll be at my goal by my birthday ( Dec.12). yeah so i have plenty of weeks ahead of me.

I'm not gonna lie....it's hard. In fact, today my lovely mother decided to bring KFC home... *sigh*

I just went to my room and reminded myself why i'm doing this and that soon it will be over. HOWEVER, that doesn't mean i will be able to eat KFC off the diet. That sort of thing will be ONLY on special occasions when i can't really avoid that type of food. For the most part i am going to have to change my lifestyle completely. I was eating pretty healthy before...ex:

B- wheat toast with egg white
L- peanut butter sandwich
S-wheat thins and string cheese
D- grilled chicken fajita w peppers


But THAT was my idea of dieting... truthfully, that is a pretty balanced diet and balanced means you don't lose OR gain. Plus i would mess up ONE time and then say "forget it" and completely go the other route...like i have no idea how to have a normal relationship with food where i like food, i eat when i'm hungry, i stop when i'm full---but I'm not addicted....food itself and living a gluttonous lifestyle. I mean, why do we look down on alcoholics and drug addicts..... gluttony is the EXACT same thing. Seeking food to satisfy a need i have instead of seeking God. This diet has taught me that what's important isn't so much that i lose 40-50 pounds, but that i recognize i have a problem. A sin problem. It is so much more than i like to eat because it tastes good and makes me feel happy. It's an idol. I may never stop struggling with this one, but at least i know that i need to change. I can't go back and forth between dieting and bingeing. I just can't.

Once i am done ( my birthday), i will eat a balanced diet and just try not to provoke that side of myself. At first i was thinking " oooh....what and where can i eat for my birthday.." but now im thinking ill just spend it with friends and family. No cake for me. because you know what is SO ironic? Rewarding myself with FOOD, after a diet. It's a vicious cycle, and not a good idea. I'm not saying i will NEVER eat cake...but I need no reward. I need God. I need to seek him for satisfaction instead of anything else in this word, because as you can see--- nothing.else.satisfies.

10 random things about me

1. My alter ego is "Lolita". I came up with the nickname for myself one night my senior year bc i thought it was acute name...well my dad thinks it has a bad connotation bc of the movie and the book. He made me watch the boring 3 hour movie to prove to me how shady it was. A. I fell asleep and B. I didn't even realize she had a relationship w that old guy until he mentioned they did. Old movies don't show bad scenes....they just hint...and i was most likely asleep when they hinted.



2. After i saw The Truman show" i was convinced for years that MY life was a t.v show. i still think it is occasionally.



3. I have an intense fear that i will get married and then find out my husband is gay..



4. I am kind of abusive with boys



5. I have yet to enjoy slow dancing with a guy. here's hoping!



6. I like watching Degrassi ( don't judge me). I love how ridiculously dramatic it is and how somehow every season they continue to surprise me. Yes...they really do "go there"


...and yes, that IS Drake. He made his mark as Jimmy on Degrassi. He's in a wheelchair bc he got shot. yeah i know what you're thinking. I can feel your judgement from here..




7. I have "cat-eye" eyeliner. Some people don't like it, but its the only way i know how to do eyeliner, and i like it :)




8. I have a major attraction to ethnic guys, mainly indians. hehe.


Dev Patel from Slumdog Millionaire



Sav from Degrassi



Sayid from LOST




9. I watch people eat( i don't even notice i'm doing it) and i decide if they eat properly or not.



10. When i was little i would pray to God and tell him i was going to kiss him with red lipstick...bc in my 5 year old mind, this truly was what real love was.

Day 2 of the diet...for real this time.

Its my second day back on the diet and its not so bad...i think what i miss the most is sweets, and no i'm not talking about fruit. I'm talking about cupcakes, sweet coffee drinks, cookies, brownies, pie, cake, chocolate candies---the works. I am OBSESSED with sweet stuff. I mean i also like bread and home cooked food, but sweets are my vice. Ugh.

I am like a vampire....trying not to drink blood but wanting it SO bad.

Apparently whey protein is supposed to help with your mood--to stabilize it. Well, i have to say after only two days, i'm cranky and i couldn't figure out why until now. I feel deprived. I'm going to keep doing it, no worries....but i need to vent right now. I'm just feeling so irritated without sugar. I mean....just to have some honey with my tea,,,THAT would do!

I really shouldn't complain. I already lost 3 pounds....but man am i in need of something sweet!




meh.

Day 2 of the Death Diet....epic fail

Dear Ward's hamburger....i don't think i have eaten one of your kind in months...possibly 8 months. And YET....i go on this crazy diet for two days and then dominate a hamburger like its nobody's business---and i never eat Ward's!

It all started with a pink Starburst....yes....a Starburst. I was in the backseat of my mom's car, on the way home from Jackson. I had been chosen by my teacher to attend the Mississippi Early Childhood Association conference and present a project i did for class. It was the longest 8 hours of my LIFE. I kept thinking about how i'd much rather be at the Passion conference. It was interesting i guess, because i learned a lot about how to use developmentally appropriate practices for young children. However, i want to be a counselor, not a child life specialist.

Anyways....back to my point...i had a boring day. My breakfast was whey protein and water ( grosss) and my lunch was lettuce. i was thinking to myself " This diet is a joke. i know better....and im just going to lose the weight and gain it all back bc i can't possibly live this way forever...not to mention 2 months".

So there i was...after two days of practically starving/drinking nasty whey crap, staring at the most beautiful thing i had seen all day: a starburst. Where it came from? God. had to of. just kidding....it came from the conference. The point is, it was taunting me. I unwrapped part of it, all the while lusting after its juiciness ( i don't even like starburst really by the way..). Then i smelled it. Mmmm smelled like teen spirit...or fruit. So i ate it! ( DUN DUN DUNNNNN!)

Then my mom took me to Ward's and i ate the best meal ever.


I feel no shame! well maybe a little.

*Sorry Lauren*

Day 1 of the Death Diet

So last night, Lauren told me she was about to go on this crazy diet-- and i was like okay what is it?


Here it is:

There are three phases to the diet. Phase one takes up most of the time ( about 8-10 wks, or however long it takes you to lose 80% of the weight) and the other phases allow you to add certain forbidden foods back into your life such as bread, fruit and dairy.

Oh.....did i mention i can't have any bread, fruit or dairy?? I didn't? probably because i just passed out from not HAVING any bread, fruit or dairy!! jk But seriously, this diet is intense. it operates around the philosophy that sugar is bad ( and it actually kind of is) and what has sugar in it??? fruit....dairy...oh and bread has carbs which turn INTO sugar. SO....the first phase you cut all that crap out... What DO i eat, you ask?

Breakfast- Coffee or tea, 1 scoop of whey protein in water-- which might i add, i almost threw up after chugging 25 oz oz of this stuff. ew.

Lunch-7 oz of raw of cooked veggies, 2 tbs olive oil....oh and the whey crap again

Snack- W-H-E-Y :(

Dinner- 7 oz of fish or chicken and 7 oz of veggies w/2 tbs olive oil

*and i have to take tons of pills bc i wont be getting the nutrients i need from fruit and dairy






I know what you're thinking......Atkins diet?? starvation??? but actually, this diet has been recommended by dietitians and doctors at Wesley Medical Center where lauren works and she knows a few people who are either on the diet or have lost tons of weight from it and have kept it off for months. So its legit ( 2 legit 2 quit).



So i am going to try it...because i love trying things. I'm still going to work out everyday like i have been--even though it isnt recommended to workout TOO much bc you have ZERO energy-haha.... but hey i'm a rebel.. My goal is to lose around 38 pounds. Lauren thinks that's too much because i'm a muscular build( it IS true...i have alot of muscle) but its just a goal. If i'm happy and 20 pounds then i'll stay there.


Lea Michele-inspiration :)



*Wish me luck*